My Healthy Journey- 35kg of weightloss but so much more weight off my shoulders

Sometimes it really is the journey and not the destination

 

Before at my deb- not even my highest weight and during- a few weeks ago

Looking back at myself over the past few years- heck basically my whole life- I was never happy with my body or myself, there was always something I wanted to change- my insecurities, my hair, my teeth, my skin tone, my eyes- and I think that is normal for a girl growing up in the society that we live in- but my biggest insecurity was always my weight.

 

I struggled with my weight from a young age- always being the chubbiest in my class, always comparing myself to the slim girls from an unhealthily young age. I don't think I was actually an overweight child for most of my childhood- it was only when it got to late primary school that I think it became an obvious problem.

 

I would always make friends with the pretty slim girls who would always take the time of day to draw attention to the fact that I wasn't as pretty as them or anywhere near as slim, and I think that from then on I had an unhealthy relationship with food.

 

My parents were away a lot when I was a child and I was never taught about healthy food, what I should and shouldn't eat- I only ever ate what I was given and that was it- and given that my mum isn't a big cook and my dad has limited cooking knowledge, for a long time that included mostly take out food or things I could manage to cook on my own.

 

All through highschool I found that I was self-conscious of my weight, and although I was never outright bullied- their was always that one guy with his snide comments about my weight.

Fast forward through highschool and into university- I moved out of home in my first year of uni, and due to issues with one of my housemates, I found I was eating takeaway more often and gaining more and more weight.

 

Around this time I met my now fiancé, and we became a couple- and as a new couple we ate out a lot and never ate all that well. at the end of our first year together I was well above my healthy weight range and miserable with my weight- so I decided I would make a change for the both of us and thus began my healthy journey. It has now been 3 years since I made that decision and although I spent a lot of time trialing and with many errors, I think I have now made myself a lifestyle I can comfortably live with and still lose the weight I want to come off.

 

This journey has also helped with my mind frame and confidence- yes I do still feel like a blob somedays and there isn't any chance I will be rocking a bikini anytime soon- but I feel more confident then I ever have- im 35kg down from my highest recorded weight and I am happily engaged to the love of my life.

 

Im writing this post to try and put my journey out there for those who may feel like they can't do it- who think you have to eat amazingly well ALL the time to get to where you want- you don't- you just have to make smart decisions about your food. its a lifestyle choice remember- a marathon not a sprint.

 

It really is about the journey- so when you get to your destination you can just keep running